Defenestrate

We have a little left to pack. Just a few hours worth. We were in Honolulu yesterday nearby my future storage unit. I asked to stop in the U-haul. The employee there was like “Oh, you made this reservation over the phone. Let me verify the information.” He then researched my reservation and found out that U-haul (over the phone) sold me a storage unit that did NOT exist. He then cancelled that reservation and gave me a bigger unit for a cheaper cost (as their phone reservation system screwed up).

I am so glad I stopped in the store in person. I also bought a lock for the unit — it was sitting next to me on the counter as the guy checked information.

errand day? Is it because I want to have my weekends off? That I want to sleep in on Saturday because Dave is running the sound board and recording on Sunday at church.

slllleeeeeppppppp

So we ran to the bank, a notary, UPS store (where my mailbox is — I had my first piece of mail), Target, the US Postal Service … and I was completely depleted.

Probably because I am still fighting caffine headaches. Glad to be going through them now than next week.

I also can get my measly payout from working at WinCo next Tuesday. It isn’t much, but it will help get me towards my storage unit.

Headaches stink.

Not this weekend, but next weekend.

We have a two storage units rented and one truck.

I am going to be so sore.

I drop to no coffee as of tomorrow. That gives me 7 mornings to start functioning before the move.

1. Within the next two weeks, reduce my caffeine intake in the AM to nothing. I am down to 12 oz. in the morning right now. (I am taking alleve for the headaches.)
2. Take a me afternoon every week. (This is like a trip to the beach or bookstore or a holy spot, but the goal is for me to be alone and just do what relaxes me in public).

That is it! Super hard goals, but do-able.

… and all through the house …

I wish I could say I could sleep. I cannot. I am wide awake. I miss Tigger. I shouldn’t whine. I should be thankful. I should feel happy.

Coulda. Shouda. Woudas.

…. But at least I am safe. Fireworks are going off all over Hawaii, so I keep waking up. No point in trying to sleep through them. I will wait until after midnight. Plus all the local parties. Loud drunks. Such fun to listen too …

…. I hope everyone is okay. If I do not call tomorrow, I am overwhelmed. Holidays … are … difficult … for me. I was smart and did a lot of online notifications yesterday.

But I do love my family. I just want to lay down and wake up in a year when there are answers to the pain inside of me.